Continual ramblings of a tired girl...

Hello fellow worldies!

Continuing from where my last blog, I am still very tired, I am still very grumpy and I am still convinced it 'IS BUTTER' (for those who get that terrible attempt at a joke....I aplaud you). Over the past couple of weeks I have tried/failed to get into the full time working life routine and have discovered one thing....it just doesn't happen. I am either walking about like a zombie (ironically suitable for the time of year) or in a grumpy, sleep deprived mood. I need to embrace my inner zen, become one with nature and welcome the early starts and late finishes.

Last night was my first attempt at a night out which involved seeing the hilarious comedian Jon Richardson in Belfast....it made a nice end to a long week. Although, it was ruined by my yawning and horrible body telling me at every opportunity that it was going to crash at any second....how do you all keep the energy alive?!! You know you need to man up when the only thought going through your mind is ''ohhh I'd love a nice warm cuppa and a piece of toast'....old before my time!

Ideally I could become an award winning author, one who sits infront of my computer writing wonderful tales/rambling books with a cup of tea on my desk and a muffin as a break time reward. My only problem is I lack the creativity/energy at the moment to create such a tale. Or maybe I should record my thoughts on a youtube video in the hopes of being spotted, join the millions of people who truely believe they will be talent scouted and be intervied on Daybreak or the likes due to their videos about makeup/covering songs/something else which I don't care about...watch this space.

I'm so tired...

Dear world wide web,

I know it has been a while from I have posted a rambling blog, but the truth is I am EXHAUSTED! Who knew that working full time would be so tiresome? I certainly didn't...nor did I think the system would beat me! I know understand the sarcasm in Dolly Parton's lyrics ''working nine to five, what a way to make a living, working nine to five, it's all taking and no giving''....yes Dolly, I agree that the work life is taking all my personality and happiness from me! My life now consists of the following;
1. Wake up at 6am
2. Very sleepily put my make up on
2 1/2. Very often poke my eye with mascarra due to being in sleep haze
3. Reapply make up and try not to blind self
4. Leave house and get bus to work....stay in work until 5pm
5. Return home from work in same sleepy haze that one left the house in the breaking dawn
6. Moan to anyone who will listen about sleepiness
7. Have a large glass of red wine
8. Watch something half heartedly
9. Go to bed at 10pm
10. Realise that I'm even more of a boring bastard than I was 6 months ago
11. Sleep....ohhh do I sleep
12. Awake at around 4am startled because alarm hasn't went off and panic that I have missed work
13. Realise I have at least another hour in bed, go to sleep....almost immediately alarm goes off....
14. The routine starts again....for 5 more days....

The youth saying of Y.O.L.O ....meaning (you only live once) has never had LESS meaning as to what it does to me...people can only live once kids because we are all TOO EXHAUSTED to live any longer.....BOOOOO to tiredness.....BOOOOO to working 9-5.....I seriously need to be talent spotted...become a famous author/journalist/actress and leave my 9-5 lifestyle behind...

If someone hires me in their feature film/wishes to publish my work then I will not only include some banter...but I'll bring doughnuts...