Passion vs Frustration

It is February 2014 and I am struggling with the dilemma - Passion vs Frustration. When does one become the other? I'm not talking in terms of relationships and romance, I'm speaking in regards to employment. At the age of 16 I realised my dream was to become a teacher - naively I believed that it would be easy to get into the profession due to my passion and flair for the arts - how wrong was 16 year old I?

From the age of 10, I have continued to try and add to my skills regarding Drama. Acting and performing arts is  my passion in life - no matter how far I try to steer from it, I always go back due to my longing for it. I am full of wonder and bewilderment as to how it is so difficult to get a career that you are happy with. I have had the repeated argument with people who state that "no - one is happy with their job" "a job's a job and you should just get on with it". I always reply with the same answer - I want my job to be my career. I want to look back on my life in 50 years time and be proud of what I have achieved. I want to be happy within my life, not living for the weekend due to not being able to stand waking up 5 days a week.

After 100's of rejections from jobs I applied for due to desperation,  rejection from PGCE applications, it's now got to the point in life were I either have a quarter life crisis or I reassess myself. I truly believe in fate and what's meant to happen will - although my gut is what's keeping me going back to Drama. I know there are 10000's of others in the same boat, although all I can think is why can't I just have someone believe in me for a change because the last thing I want is for my passion to become my frustration.

January 2014

Where has the time went? It's been a while since I last blogged, reason being that nothing worth writing about has happened within my life recently - depressing but true.  At the moment I am unemployed and STILL trying my hardest to find my way in the world. I am 24 years old and know that I want to work within education - my heart is torn between perusing Youth Work or Teaching....both being VERY difficult to get a career within. Sometimes I wish that my heart lay in retail or something a little more achievable, alas, it's never easy.

2013 was a pretty rubbish year - I had a freak accident which involved my car boot closing on my head thus resulting in a fractured skull and a severe concussion. This resulted in me having to leave a fabulous job opportunity THUS resulting in me now being unemployed. I am trying to stay optimistic and think 2014 has got to be better, right? It's only fair that people should have a break from bad luck....if only that's how life worked.

I hope that my next blog will be a little more upbeat and I shall bring good tidings to the world wide wed rather than being so down hearted. I've got to the point were I'm boring myself being down, therefore I think this is the stage in which I need to turn my life around and be positive - easier said than done. Each constant rejection just adds to the 'down' - it would be nice for someone/something to have faith in you.

Only time will tell...