It is February 2014 and I am struggling with the dilemma - Passion vs Frustration. When does one become the other? I'm not talking in terms of relationships and romance, I'm speaking in regards to employment. At the age of 16 I realised my dream was to become a teacher - naively I believed that it would be easy to get into the profession due to my passion and flair for the arts - how wrong was 16 year old I?
From the age of 10, I have continued to try and add to my skills regarding Drama. Acting and performing arts is my passion in life - no matter how far I try to steer from it, I always go back due to my longing for it. I am full of wonder and bewilderment as to how it is so difficult to get a career that you are happy with. I have had the repeated argument with people who state that "no - one is happy with their job" "a job's a job and you should just get on with it". I always reply with the same answer - I want my job to be my career. I want to look back on my life in 50 years time and be proud of what I have achieved. I want to be happy within my life, not living for the weekend due to not being able to stand waking up 5 days a week.
After 100's of rejections from jobs I applied for due to desperation, rejection from PGCE applications, it's now got to the point in life were I either have a quarter life crisis or I reassess myself. I truly believe in fate and what's meant to happen will - although my gut is what's keeping me going back to Drama. I know there are 10000's of others in the same boat, although all I can think is why can't I just have someone believe in me for a change because the last thing I want is for my passion to become my frustration.
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