Meh!

Unfortunately there will always be a period throughout life when things go wrong, whether it's you can't seem to say or do anything right, you get snowed under with work or you just feel down, but the thing to remember is it will get better. Take for example, for the past 4 days, nothing I have said or done has been correct, things being written on social networking sites, university work getting too much....but the thing I have to remember is that every cloud has a silver lining. Yes, a rant on a social networking site may make you feel somewhat better at the time, but you have to take a step back and instead of pointing the finger at others, take the time to re-evaluate why YOU'RE unhappy. It is true that in order to be happy you should surround yourself with positive, influentual people - which sometimes is impossible. Although, I'm going to take the mindset of trying to see the positive in all situations - life is what you make it. Everyone has down days, some for more valid reasons than others, but we shouldn't put those people down or make their situation about us - everyone deals with things differently and it's important to remember this before you start giving your opinion. I have realised that I am getting overly hyped about little things due to the fact that I graduate from university in a month and a half and I, like millions of other students am stressed to meet important deadlines and trying not to fail! If I could ask one thing today, it would be for everyone to take a step back, count to ten then re-evaluate a situation before making a judgement. Enjoy your life and if you dislike another person, take the ''got nothing nice to say then don't say anything at all'' approach.

Live.Life.Love <----- Be Happy :)!

*Insert.Fake.Smile*

I don't know whether it's just the stress of life or that I'm becoming a mature adult but I really don't have the time nor energy for immature people any longer....some people will just never learn to grow up. When I applied for University, I pressumed that it would be a time of finding myself like they do in the movies, a time for learning what I'm like as a person and not be subjected to the immature rants and bitchiness of school children....I was sadly mistaken. It seems that it doesn't really matter what age you are or where you are, you will constantly be in the company of people who aren't on the same  level as yourself (and I for one lack maturity for the best of times). It's not just university which is full of the school/mean girl esq cliques, it's in employment, when walking down the street, when going into a shop to buy milk. Wherever I go or whatever I seem to do in life, someone will always take a dislike to me or someone else and make a situation ridiculously awkward. I wish life could just be full of happy people who just want to have a good time and not make others feel secluded or make nasty comments, but I don't live in care-bear land which is full of fluffy clouds and farts which smell of candyfloss. At the age of 22, I don't want to mirror those on the programme 'grumpy old women'...I simply wish to be surronded by happy and supportive people, people who make it worth getting out of bed for in the morning. There are people like this in my life, but there is always a handful of others who seem to push their way in to make my mind say bad words on a daily basis. I wish I had the balls to write ''just go f**k yourself and shove your attitude where your personaility is, in a sewer''...but I'll simply continue to smile and remind myself that it's just not worth it. I constantly speak about how I feel that the 'age of love' should be brought into our mentalities and that we should take an optimistic approach to life, hopefully one day this will happen...but for the moment I will have to overcome my constant pesimistic attitude and smile through the annoyance and could make a start by stopping ranting my anger and frustration on social networking sites.....*smiles*

Grannyitus

Well, today is one of the nicest days in Belfast, the sun is shinning, I don't feel the need to curl up into a ball for heat, but what do I decide to do?....stay in and catch up on last nights television which I can watch anytime. I'm starting to notice a pattern about myself, I am very lazy. Honestly, if I can get away with not doing something, I will.....This needs to change - I need to find my motivation, my muse, my something to kick my behind and tell me to catch myself on. I graduate University in July and I'm still not motivated to put my all into the next couple of months, is it an admitted defeat to the educational system or again is it out of sheer laziness? Bruno Mars hits the nail in the head with his lyrics "today I don't feel like doing anything, I just wanna stay in my bed''....well Bruno, I agree with the first part, but I don't particulary wish to spend my day in bed alone, maybe sit infront of the television and watch majestic shows such as Man v Food or Judge Judy....yes, that would be thrilling. I need to get motivated RIGHT NOW - the clocks went forward an hour, meaning that we loose an hour of our day, this should be enough to get my mind in order - I should be thinking ''that's an hour taken off my life for nothing today'' but instead I'm thinking....''ohhhh bed an hour earlier''.....I should diagnose my laziness with something, maybe put it down to ''grannyitus'' which translates to: One who would rather sit infront of the television with a cup of tea instead of gallavanting around the city centre in a short skirt spending ridiculous prices for alcohol. Or another definition - A boring sod who needs to learn to embrace life!

Tired Eyes...

For the past week I have done nothing but stare at a computer due to work commitments, therefore it doesn't suprise me that I know resemble that of a drug lord due to my red, swollen, bloodshot eyes...they feel and look as though I havn't slept for a year! In saying that, tomorrow is a big day in my academic career, it is the last time I will have to hand in a piece of mid term coursework, meaning I only have a dissertation and exam to stress about then that's me free to become a stereotypical student - unemployed and in debt! I'm hoping that July comes faster than I think as I don't think my poor mind can handle any more stress or that my brain can take in any further books! All that complaining done it's now on to the important news; I'M GOING TO SEE STEPS IN 12 DAYS! I adore Steps, they are cheese galore! My childhood consisted of learning/making up routines to my favourite Steps tracks and I was hooked on their eccentric costumes and disney esq smiles! Awwww, if only life was as difficult as it was when I was 9 years old, having to set my alarm at 9am due to rushing downstairs to watch SMTV LIVE on ITV1 at 9.15, then getting ready and going out with my mum to visit my family. Those were the days....* insert memory montage here* Bring on July so that my childhood niavity can recommence for a short period of time, before I have to enter the big bad world of trying to look for employment...."We all love SMTV, Ant, Dec and Cat Deely"

Happy St Patricks Day!

Well, it's that time of year again, when people in Northern Ireland use any excuse to bicker eachother. St Patricks Day, along with many other festivals in Belfast/Northern Ireland should be used to promote a sense of community with everyone. The troubles have been and gone and I wish they could be left in the past. We are all human beings and shouldn't be judged by a relgion you wish to follow. I don't mean to sound like a peace loving hippy, but there is enough violence and hatred in the world - why not just let the past stay in the past and lets teach our children to move forward and to accept people for who they are, not what they have been brought up or chosen to believe in! Use today as a happy experience, enjoy a few drinks with different people and if they can't be grown up about a ridiculous situation then just rise above it and be content in knowing that you're making the future a better place to live in. On social networking sites it is ridiculous that people are being sectarian just for the sake of making a point, which they have been brought up to believe....it truely frustrates me and I just wish more people took my mindset instead of playing up to a stereotype! Have a happy and peaceful St Patricks Day peeps! Have a guinness for me, while I sit in the house like a loner whilst Belfast gets the one day of sun this year....coursework YET AGAIN is ruining my life!

Your father shagged a Watsit?

With the stress of life getting to me at the minute, I have realised that my patience has deteriorated into non-existant - little things are making me very angry or frustrated. Take yesterday for example, I was on the train home from University and was very tired due to an early start, I decided that I would try and do some important reading on the train home, I thought wrong; while trying to get a seat on the very busy train I ended up stuck beside two of the most pompous females I have ever had the unfortune to sit beside. Lets name said girls A and B - A proceeded in a very loud and obnoxious voice to tell details of the night before, telling B about how many men swooned over her and how she rejected 'Billy' as his mate and I quote ''looked like a better ride''....to which girl B proceeded to flick her hair repeatedly and answer back ''Awww mate, all the girls were mingers, I mean, we're classy, too classy for Z club...all the girls kept staring at me cus I looked amazing...seriously, I could have had anyone in that club''.. Now without sounding like a horrible person, these two createns looked like if oxygen touched their face they would explode. I don't know whether they intenionally tried to apply their 'make up' or more like face mask on with a shovel or whether it was to cover up the bags for the ''mega'' night they apparently had before. This thoroughly annoyed me yesterday, as there was me, sitting in the corner of this train trying my best to read a book which I have to write an important essay on, ended up with my ipod on full blast trying to drown out the screeching of said girls voices. Moral of this story is I may not have got any further in my academic novel, but at least I can sleep happy and content knowing that girl A went home with ''Billy'' even though he has a girlfriend, but why should she care, she has can get any one she wants....apparently. Boys of the world, please please PLEASE grow some standards. This is my appeal - for just £2 you too can help stop the milly's of this world. Your £2 a week can buy a pack of make up remover pads, which will stop girls like A and B sitting looking like Watsits on trains in Northern Ireland. Next time you see a girl sitting on the train/bus/coffee shop who looks like their father has shagged a Carrot, please remember that your £2 a week can and will make a difference to society. This girls face is calling out for oxygen and her mouth a rest. Together, we can make the world a more natural place.

The Players

If it hasn't came across already in my blogs, I am in love with anything performing arts related! I have been a part of and helped run a drama group called The Players in Belfast, Northern Ireland for 7 years now. The group is self funded and has put on 6 pantomimes and 2 original plays which I have performed in and choreographed. I feel it is only right to advertise this group as they deserve some recognition! We do a lot of community based work; the reason being that for a long time there was no sense of community in our area - we wanted to change this. By putting on productions and trying to bring the area together we are hoping to bring a bond and closeness back. At the minute the group is rehearsing for our up and coming show DEJA VU which was written by a first time local playwright - we feel it is important to introduce and promote local talent as everyone with a love and passion for the arts deserves the chance to shine! I have found that by becoming involved with Drama and Dance, they have changed my life - it has brought a much needed confidence out in my personality and help me overcome difficult obstacles in my life. I wish I could encourage others who feel the same as I did, who feel like they have lost their voice to join a local amateur group and begin to build up a confidence which has been lost. It's important to become part of something which makes you happy and instead of wasting your time and energy doing nothing, why not try something new?

Check out The Players offical website and keep up to date with any events or performances we will be putting on. We appreciate any help, support or advice given towards our group and we hope that by putting on these performances and helping local writers, that we are contributing even a little bit to our community and raising awareness of the arts for those who don't know much about it. Visit: www.shankillplayers.co.uk.

Enough of the crap!

Today has been an....interesting day. I will never be suprised by how nasty and vindictive some people can be in this world. I have spoken before about how I don't understand how others think they can manipulate and speak to others in an inappropriate way, well this has happened to myself this evening. I believe in karma and I believe that those who act in haste and say things to hurt others or to ruin their reputation whether it be in personal, work related or any other aspect of life that they should take a step back, count to 10 and shut up!! If people wish to work with the public, they need to learn how to deal with them and treat them as individuals rather than scheme and behave childish. I'd like to think of myself as a kind and genuine person, both in my personal and work life. If I have a problem, I will discuss it when appropriate and in a calm and mature manner, but sadly this isn't the case for a lot of people. The moral of this blog is sometimes we act and speak in haste and I wish to advise others to think before they speak as there could be reporcussions. Bring back the age of love - get rid of bullsh*ters!!!