Before embarking on my University career, I was lead to believe that I would complete three years of higher education, discover my 'true self' and create some fantastic memories like those on an american sitcom and that I would strut out of my education a better person with fantastic employability skills and walk straight into a well paid job. Although, it is now almost two solid months from I became a graduate, I have applied for hundreds of jobs and have yet to recieve even a rejection letter. There has to be a silver lining to this cloud or I will become like one of those females seen on repeats of Jeremey Kyle whom pass their time by trying to find out who their ''baby daddy'' is or whom brings an ex partner who they dated for 2 weeks around six years ago on to have a lie dectector test....this may be how I have to pass my time. My moping around my house has became more noticed and commented on....it used to be ''you have to get a job''....but now it has gotten that bad that I'm getting pity from even the man from across the street....he looks at me and knows my umemployed pain.
Many keep advising me to enjoy myself whilst I am not ''a slave to my mortgage''.....although this isn't the case for me. How am I supposed to enjoy myself with no money. My reply shall be from this day forth -'I shall enjoy myself if you start to fund my days''. Looking back on my recent blogs there seems to be an atmosphere of depression about me *someone throw me a happy pill*. I hope that something good is on its way into my life so as I can sound like my happy self, rather than that of a hormonal EMO who hates the world because noone understands them. I don't think my repition of waking in the morning, watching silly repeats of Jeremey Kyle shows hoping that the outcome is the reasurrance that my life hasn't hit rock bottom................YET.
Music has always been an important aspect of my life, when times get hard it's always comforting to listen to a piece of music/lyrics and realise that you're not alone. I have decided to dedicate today's blog to some of my favourite lyrics. Artists such as Paul Mccartney, John Lennon, Daryl Hall, Aretha Franklin and Stevie Wonder have been given an extrodinary talent of lyric writing. Lennon and Mccartney have an amazing ability to turn such basic lyrics into songs with deep and beautiful meanings; they do this with such simplicity like no other and no artist in the world has ever came close to. I have compiled a list of some lyrics which touch my heart...I hope you enjoy them as much as I do. Also - make sure to have a listen to these tracks and others from these artists, they are simply fantastic. Geniuses of music.
1) And in the end, the love you take, is equal to the love you make - The Beatles: Golden Slumbers
2) Though I've been in love before, but in my heart I wanted more, it seems like all I really was doing, was waiting for you - The Beatles: Real Love
3) When I feel cold, you warm me and when I feel I can't go on, you come and hold me, it's you and me forever - Hall and Oates: Sara Smile
4) Don't play that song for me, cause it brings back memories, of days that I once knew, the days that I spent with you, Oh no! Don't let them play it, It fills my heart with pain, Please stop it right away, Cuz I remember just what he said, He said, "Darling"And I know that he lied, You know that you lied,You know that you lied, lied, you lied to me - Aretha Franklin: Don't play that song
5) Whatever happened to, the life that we once knew, and we couldn't live without eachother, when did we loose the touch, that seemed to me so much, it always made me feel, so free as a bird like the next best thing to be, free as a bird. - The Beatles: Free as a bird
6) Like sweet morning dew, I took one look at you, And it was plain to see you were my destiny, With arms open wide I threw away my pride, I'll sacrifice for you, dedicate my life to you, I will go where you lead, always there in time of need, And when I lose my will you'll be there to push me up the hill, There's no, no looking back for us, We got love sure enough, that's enough, You're all, you're all I need to get by - Marvin Gaye and Tammie Terrell: You're all I need to get by
7) Today I saw somebody who looked just like you, he walked like you do, I thought it was you, as he turned the corner, I called out your name, I felt so ashamed, when it wasn't you, you are everything, and everything is you. How can I forget when this face that I see, brings back memories of being with you, Ohh my darling, I just can't go on living life as I do, comparing each girl with you and they just won't do, they're not you - Marvin Gaye: You are everything
8) I'm so tired of being alone, I'm so tired of on-my-own, won't you help me, girl, just as soon as you can. I guess you know that I, uh, love you so, even though, you don't want me no more, hey, hey, hey, I'm cryin' tears, all through the years, I tell you like it is, honey, love me if you can. - Al Green: I'm so tired of being alone
9) Love and happiness, Something that can, make you do wrong, Make you do right, Love and happiness, Wait a minute something's going wrong, Someone's on the phone, Three o'clock in the morning, Talkin' about, how she can make it right, Well, happiness is when, You really feel good, about somebody, Nothing wrong with being in love with someone - Al Green: Love and Happiness
10) Baby Im amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe Im afraid of the way I love you
Baby Im amazed at the the way you pulled me out of time
Hung me on a line
Maybe Im amazed at the way I really need you
Baby Im a man and maybe Im a lonely man
Whos in the middle of something
That he dosent really understand
Babe Im a man and maybe you're the only woman
Who could ever help me
Baby wont you help to me understand
Paul Mccartney: Maybe I'm amazed
11) We can't play this game anymore
But can we still be friends
Things just can't go on like before
But can we still be friends
We had something to learn
Now it's time for the wheel to turn
Grains of sand, one by one
Before you know it, all gone
Let's admit we made a mistake
But can we still be friends
Heartbreak's never easy to take
But can we still be friends
It's a strange, sad affair
Sometimes seems like we just don't care
Don't waste time feeling hurt
We've been through hell together
Todd Rundgren: Can we still be friends
12) Oh yeah, I'll tell you something, I think you'll understand, When I say that something, I want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand, Oh please say to me, You'll let me be your man, And please say to me, You'll let me hold your hand, You'll let me hold your hand, I want to hold your hand, And when I touch you I feel happy inside, It's such a feeling that my love, I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide, Yeah, you got that something, I think you'll understand, When I say that something, I want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand
And when I touch you I feel happy inside, It's such a feeling that my love, I can't hide, I can't hide, I can't hide, Yeah, you got that something, I think you'll understand, When I feel that something, I want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand, I want to hold your hand.
The Beatles: I want to hold your hand
Over the past while I have felt frustrated with the lack of good things happening in my world, therefore I have decided to dedicate this post to some funnies to hopefully make all you lovely people in the world smile if you're having a bad day =)!
- My boyfriend says that I never solve my own problems.
How do I prove him wrong?
- I came home from work early one night to find my wife and my best mate, sweaty and breathless in the living room. I said, "What's going on?"
My wife said, "Erm... We've been playing on the Wii Fit." She winked at my mate and said, "Dave did VERY well."
As I walked out of the room, I heard them giggling and calling me a "dickhead", but I had the last laugh. I checked the next day, and none of his scores had even registered!
- Having just met my blind date in the pub, I brought her a drink and, as we sat down, some jive music came on the jukebox.
She said, "There is something about the jive I find sexy."So, to impress her, I waved my arms about doing the hand jive. She moaned that she was getting wet. I said, "Am I turning you on?""No, you still have your fucking pint in your hand."
- A guy walks into a local pharmacy and up to the counter where a lady pharmacist is filling prescriptions. When she finally gets around to helping him, he says, "I'd like ninety-nine condoms, please." With a surprised look on her face, the pharmacist says, "Ninety-nine condoms? Fuck me!" To which the guy replies, "Make it a hundred then."
- A young lad wanders into Boots the Chemist and asked to buy condoms. The Chemist manages to convince the lad to buy a dozen multicoloured condoms which were on offer. Nine months later the lad is back to buy a maternity bra. "What bust?" asks the chemist. "I think it was the blue one."
- When I was a kid, my dad sat me down and showed me pictures of why I should always wear a condom...Funny thing is, they were all just pictures of me.
- I went on a date this evening. I said, "So, are you a vampire?" "No," she said, with a puzzled look on his face. I said, "So you can see your reflection and you still come out looking like that?"
I think back to an 18 year old me, someone who had ambitions, who thought that embarking on my educational journey and going to university to not only better myself as a person but to better my chances of gaining employment. I was someone who naively thought that I would strut out of university and walk straight into a well paid, respectable job....I always seen myself as Carrie Bradshaw, a freelance writer for a fabulous magazine who lived in a rent controlled apartment in New York who had amazing clothes, 3 best friends and a live to build 6 series on *I'm literally just reciting the plot of Sex and the City* I also believed that I would be spotted by some talent scout and that my dancing and acting skills would have me on the big screen working alongside the likes of Rob Patz *playing my love interest obviously* or they would see potential in me to be cast as Ana Steele in '50 Shades of Grey'.....ALAS.... but you get the drift. I graduated in July and have been unemployed from January....basically the money was dwindled to nothing. I feel like a 8 year old child who needs to beg their parents for money for a 5p packet of crisps.
The scary thing is that I'm not alone.....thousands of recent graduates are facing the same problems. The majority of us went ot Univesity having believed the hype that it would better our chances of employment, but in reality it has done the opposite. There was an article circulating in the papers recenetly which stated that recent graduates couldn't even get jobs as binsmen and road sweapers - this has to stop. At 22 years old, I am at a point in my life where I want to start saving to buy my own house, to start my life away from the family home, to make memories and to become an independant adult....but the way things are going at the moment I'm going to end up more like the guys in 'Step Brothers' rather than Carrie Bradshaw and the likes.
I will have to grin and bare the hideous routine that I find myself in daily, waking up at 9am, strolling leisurely downstairs, getting a cup of tea, putting on the television and watching repeats of Jeremey Kyle....simply to remind myself that I haven't hit rock bottom.....just yet.
