Before embarking on my University career, I was lead to believe that I would complete three years of higher education, discover my 'true self' and create some fantastic memories like those on an american sitcom and that I would strut out of my education a better person with fantastic employability skills and walk straight into a well paid job. Although, it is now almost two solid months from I became a graduate, I have applied for hundreds of jobs and have yet to recieve even a rejection letter. There has to be a silver lining to this cloud or I will become like one of those females seen on repeats of Jeremey Kyle whom pass their time by trying to find out who their ''baby daddy'' is or whom brings an ex partner who they dated for 2 weeks around six years ago on to have a lie dectector test....this may be how I have to pass my time. My moping around my house has became more noticed and commented on....it used to be ''you have to get a job''....but now it has gotten that bad that I'm getting pity from even the man from across the street....he looks at me and knows my umemployed pain.
Many keep advising me to enjoy myself whilst I am not ''a slave to my mortgage''.....although this isn't the case for me. How am I supposed to enjoy myself with no money. My reply shall be from this day forth -'I shall enjoy myself if you start to fund my days''. Looking back on my recent blogs there seems to be an atmosphere of depression about me *someone throw me a happy pill*. I hope that something good is on its way into my life so as I can sound like my happy self, rather than that of a hormonal EMO who hates the world because noone understands them. I don't think my repition of waking in the morning, watching silly repeats of Jeremey Kyle shows hoping that the outcome is the reasurrance that my life hasn't hit rock bottom................YET.
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