Sometimes in life things keep happening and knocking back your confidence. For example, at this moment in time I have done nothing but get rejected from job applications, graduate schemes and PGCE courses...it makes me wonder what exactly is wrong with me? I like many of thousands of other graduates were lead to believe the world would be our oyster upon graduation....alas! It was all lies!
A recent article on www.bbc.co.uk news website stated that 1 in 10 youth felt worthless due to the recession....well I am in that percentage. I feel as though there is something hideously wrong with me as a person due to constantly reciving rejection and unsuccessful letters/emails.
I truely with all my heart and soul want to be a drama teacher, it's where my passion has been from I could walk and talk....surely that's a good thing? Although, why do I constantly feel as though I'm not good enough for this profession. I'm starting to believe that there is a black X against my name in employment and trying to be happy at the moment. I feel as though I'm waking up and living through my days like a zombie, I'm unhappy with how things are panning out and it's affecting my daily live - anxiety, depression, illness.....all due to constantly feeling rejected....Something has got to give at some point......right?!
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