Whilst sitting in work and having a general chit chat with a co worker I realised something which probably should have stayed hidden in a closed box at the back of my mind....I asked the question of what makes you you? If for example, like myself, you have only been single for 8 months in total between the age of 14 - present have you allowed yourself time to grow as an individual or have you merely morphed into a 'half' of a couple rather than a whole person?
Although this may seem like a silly concept, it has got me thinking about how one can in hippy terms ''find oneself'''. A lot of people feel the need to travel, to meet new people, embrace new surroundings, while others 'discover themselves' at university. I have never experienced this new found sense of self. Is this a bad thing? I feel exactly the same person as I was when I was 13 years old, the only execption being I think of outcomes differently, with a lot of my decisions being based on money (Can I afford this? Will I be able to pay for petrol this week if I do X?) By opening these thoughts I have freaked out slightly and at the present time am googling years out to Australlia/somewhere which isn't Northern Ireland and wondering if I am wasting my life by not thinking about this too much?...
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